Beginning Meditation

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Beginning meditation is like looking into a mirror.  Maybe we like what we see, maybe we don’t.  Either way, no use arguing with the reflection.

Happy Birthday


Happy Birthday

 I miss you so much, I can’t stand it
Seems like my heart is breaking in two
The head says, no, but my soul demands it
Everything I do reminds me of you

I miss you so much in this house full of shadows
While the rain keeps pouring down my window too
When will the pain recede to the darkness
From whence it has come and I’m feeling so blue

Ain’t goin’ down, no more to the well
Sometimes it feels like I’m going to hell
Sometimes, I’m knocking on your front door
But I don’t have nothing to sell no more

Seems like the spirit is pushing me onwards
I’m able to see, where I tripped and went wrong
I’ll just have to guess where my soul will find comfort
And I miss you so much when I’m singing my song

Ain’t goin’ down, no more to the well
But sometimes it seems I’m going to hell
You’ll find me knocking on your front door
Well I don’t have nothing to sell no more

Seems like my spirit, is pushing me onwards
‘Til I’m able to see where, I tripped when I went wrong
I’ll just have to guess where my soul will get comfort
I miss you so much when I’m singing my song

I miss you so much, I can’t stand it
Seems like my heart is breaking in two
The head says, go, but my soul demands it
And everything I do reminds me of you
Everything I do reminds me of you
Everything I do reminds me of you

Van Morrison

Varoom, Varoom


A day that I will remember forever – as It was a beautiful summer day as I drove up the coast with a new friend.

A day that I will remember forever – as its impression is engrained in my mind.  Everything was new and fresh, a new beginning.

A day that I will remember forever – I never experienced passion as I did that day.

A day that I will remember forever

Took an untrodden path once, where the swift don’t win the race
It goes to the worthy, who can divide the word of truth
Took a stranger to teach me, to look into justice’s beautiful face
And to see an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth – Bob Dylan


changeYou see I know change
I see change
I embody change
All we do is change
Yea, I know change
We’re born to change
We sometimes regard it as a metaphor
That reflects the way things ought to be
In fact, change takes time
It exceeds all expectations
It requires both now and then
See, although the players change,
The song remains the same
And the truth is,
You gotta have the balls to change

Weekly Quote


Oh, the heart has no bones you say so it won’t break.

But the purpose of loving is the pounding it takes.

Multitasking – Good or Bad?


Is Multitasking a good thing or a bad thing?

In my journey to obtain a clearer mind I came across the idea of multitasking.  It struck me on how many of us seem to think that its a good thing to get as many things done as possible at the same time. I’m sure all of our bosses would like us to be more productive by doing more than a human can handle at one time.  But are we really more productive or just looking busy?

Definition of Multitasking, in an operating system, is allowing a user to perform more than one computer task (such as the operation of an application program) at a time. The operating system is able to keep track of where you are in these tasks and go from one to the other without losing information.

Can we really Multitask effectively? Should we really even try?

My short answer is a resounding NO.  How can we focus on more than one thing at a time and expect to do any of those things with clarity and intelligence.  Our lives are filled with doing and not enough of just being.

The American culture doesn’t understand simply being.  What a shame.  In our culture when a person reaches old age and cannot “Do” anymore we seem to set them aside in old age homes to wither away and die.  Aren’t those the people that have lived the longest and should have the most experience and wisdom?  I never understood that concept.  In other cultures they are revered but not ours.  Sent away and visited every Tuesday.  It’s no wonder that most of them don’t remember us when we arrive on Tuesday, or are they just paying us back for our misguided placement of the wisest of us all.

Just something to think about.

Walden Pond

walden pond“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion.”

Henry David Thoreau



My monsters come in different shapes and sizes.
Over the years, I have learned to deal with them.
I do that by letting go

First, I let go of my wish to suppress them.
When they arrive, I acknowledge them
I let them be.



Next, I let go of my instinct to vilify them.
I seek to understand them.

I see them for who they are.
they are merely creations of my body and mind.
I humor them a little.
I joke with them.
I joke about them.
I let them play.

Then, I let go of my desire to feed them.
They may play here all they want.
But they get no food from me.
they are free to stay here hungry, if they want.
I continue to let them be.
Then they get really hungry,
And sometimes they leave.

Finally, I let go of my desire to hold on to them,
They are free to leave as they wish,
I let them go
I am free,
For now.

I do not overcome them,
They do not overcome me,
And we live together,
In harmony. – Chade-Meng Tan

Weekly Quote


Lewis and Clark were lost most of the time. If your idea of exploration is to always know where you are and to be inside your zone of competence, you don’t do wild new shit.

You have to be confused, upset, think you’re stupid.  If you’re not willing to do that, you can’t go outside the box – Nathan Myhrvold


Trying too hard?


Are you trying too hard?

I discovered an important lesson, accidentally.  Isn’t that how it always happens, accidentally.  The lesson was that sometimes we try too hard to make things happen.  Sometimes they just need to grow on their own, organically.

I seem to get in my own way at times.  Oh yeah, I’m human.

I’ve been struggling on looking for my passion.  Well I think I was trying way too hard and it was getting frustrating.

I learned along time ago on how to change the frustration feeling into a positive feeling.  I look at frustration as a trigger to tell myself that I’m getting ready to learn something new and make a breakthrough.  The “learning something new” works for me, replace your frustration with your own trigger.  Have fun with it.  It truly works.

So I took a step back to gain a different perspective and out of nowhere, all of a sudden I was presented with some clarity and direction.  It resonated so well with my morals and values.  I felt a feeling of relief as if a light illuminated the darkness that was heavy and overbearing at times.  All gone with a single swoop of inspiration.

I will be documenting my journey any comments are appreciated and…….

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